Poems

Selling Our Soul to Time

Time is the greatest of all warriors
What it doesn’t destroy it alters beyond recognition. Time tears down everything, yet we cling to it rather then love. We brace our backs against the void desperate to hold onto the past, to ourselves, to our ghosts.
And in that desperation, we only keep those who let us believe this illusion;

Denying true love, so we can feel young.

From Season 2 of Altered Carbon

Ancient Yowl

I, man will not lose that fire
The smell of burning wood smoke on my shirt
The sound of the feral life surrounding my body and soul
Cravings deep, sinewy, scraping against the earth with my chest bare
Lost, wild and ancient I roar my rage into the wind

I will never surrender to some Faustian bargain just to survive
Bleeding out my life, one sterile piece of plastic at a time
I would rather die stripped naked, beaten and thrown in my barrow
Body almost dead but soul fully intact ready to scream the ancient yowl

That the gods will hear my roar so that I shall grow love and joy from my moist, sweet grave

Is Love a Fancy or a Feeling?

Is love a fancy, or a feeling? No.
It is immortal as immaculate Truth.
Tis not a blossom shed as soon as youth
Drops from the stem of life- for it will grow,
In barren regions, where no waters flow
Nor ray of promise cheats the pensive gloom.
A darkling fire, faint hovering o’er a tomb,
That but itself and darkness nought doth shew
Is my love’s beauty, – yet it cannot die,
Nor will it change, though all be changed beside;
Tho’ fairest beauty be no longer fair,
Tho’ vows be false, and faith itself deny,
Tho’ sharp enjoyment be a suicide,
And hope a spectre in a ruin bare.

by Hartley Coleridge

The Earth

We are intimate with the Earth each day
We breathe in and she breathes out
We sleep and she dances

Our hearts beat this moment and she pours her pulsing oceans into our veins
We are perfect as we stand on her rocky, sharp edges. She fully accepts our imperfections

Touch her in a way that no one has done before
Stimulate her entire being so she breaths life into you

A Prayer for Your Wild Soul

Give yourself time to make a prayer that will become the prayer of your soul. Listen to the voices of longing in your soul. Listen to your hungers.

Give attention to the unexpected that lives around the rim of your life. Listen to your memory and to the in rush of your future, to the voices of those near you and those you have lost.

Out of all of that attention to your soul, make a prayer that is big enough for your wild soul, yet tender enough for your shy and awkward vulnerability; that has enough healing to gain the ointment of divine forgiveness for your wounds; enough truth and vigour to challenge your blindness and complacency; enough graciousness and vision to mirror your immortal beauty.

Write a prayer that is worthy of the destiny to which you have been called.

John O’Donohue, at Cliff’s of Moher

The Fire of Intimacy

Intimacy is like a fire you tend to each day
The more fuel you add the bigger the fire gets
The fuel is vulnerability and letting go of expectations, to name a few

The risk is the fire gets too big and to hot
We fear getting burned or being consumed
So we put up defenses and throw water on the fire

The other risk is the fire goes out
The flickering red tone begs for its last gasp of air
But nothing helps and the glow fades slowly into the brown ground

At that moment we make a choice
Either tend to the hot fire or relight the doused flames and then
Bask in it’s warmth, slowly feed it and keep it lit so it nurtures both body and soul.

Eternity and madness

“Love releases us into the devine imagination, where the soul is expanded and reminded of its unearthly cravings and needs. We think that when a lover inflates his loved one he is failing to acknowledge her flaws – “Love is blind.” But it may be the other way around. Love allows a person to see the true angelic nature of another person, the halo, the aureole of divinity. Certainly from the perspective of ordinary life this is madness and illusion. But if we let loose our hold on our philosophies and psychologies of enlightenment and reason, we might learn to appreciate the perspective of eternity that enters life as madness, Plato’s divine frenzy.” Thomas Moore

When Does the Wildflower Blossom

One wonders, how the wildflower seed grows
From where it arrives no one can know
Exquisite and delicate, windswept through its flight
Can it grow in the day or does it open at night

Its plantings a mystery, no curation nor control
Trust must be cultivated, from deep within its own soul
Its natural beauty could burst out any day in the sun
But it blooms on its own, such tenderness not easily won

This wildflower can grow among weeds or tall grass
But never can one, such beauty possess
Many moments of wonder, the heart flows with such joy
To have gazed on such beauty, this Helen of Troy 

The wind and the rain, could tear it apart
So don’t hold it too close with your hand on your heart
But make no mistake, the sun does rise and does set
Just live in this moment where there is no regret

Cause what’s so great, about this flower so true, yet so wild
Are its shapes and its colors, drawn forth from the heart of a child
And though this heart so complex, at times fragile and scared
Even so it still will blossom, when it simply declares

A Perfect Storm

It was a perfect storm.
Each part of life aligned and designed to collide
An eruption of forces drives down through the sea
Triggering a tsunami of upheaval

Reaching for control to lessen the force
of the pain as it comes faster and harder
Pounding against the walls built for safety
We should be OK, I should be OK
But should is not real

Wave after rolling wave, my soul patiently awaits
Taking with it one grain each moment
As I tumble into the sea
Drawn down into its depths, the dark salty sea fills my lungs

Each grain crunches between my teeth
Control slips away, floating slowly to the bottom as the sand
burst around me upon impact
It chokes me, fighting for breath, for life, not knowing where up is

The storm rages above, the darkness surrounds me in echoing silence
Somehow breathing, I rest finally
At the bottom I sleep, gently in the womb of mother earth
Her milk feeds my soul and I let go of all I gained
I let go of many I loved and
I sleep
In the darkness of wisdom and in the peace of the unknown
I sleep

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